Fighting the Urge

My diet so far as been kind of a big fail, well maybe not an epic fail but not going as smoothly as I would like it to. I understand that I shouldn't focus on a diet but more so a lifestyle change so that my weight won't fluctuate but it's hard when you want to see instant result.

Working as a server at a sushi restaurant has its pros and cons. On the one hand I get 50% off on all the items, but on the other hand I am starving at the end of the night and the sushi chefs always make extra food for us. While I am grateful for this eating sushi at 12am is the worst thing I can do. Basically, I'm trying to avoid eating after 9pm which is impossible. I almost made it out of work not eating any of the sushi, but then something called the Scallop Dynamite Roll happened.

Not the exact roll, but really similar

I devoured two of these babies and instantly felt satisfaction yet guilt. I really need to work on my relationship with food. The deliciousness of this roll is not worth the guilt I felt afterwards. I should have just eaten one instead of two. It's all about portion control.

So to combat my constant "hunger" pangs, I've just been drinking a lot more water and boy does it make a difference. I have a real hard time distinguishing between actual hunger and thirst. As a result, I end up eating when I'm only hungry. So now, I drink a lot of water and if my stomach is still crying then I know it's time to eat.

*TIP: Drink tons of water! Not only does it fill you up but it cleanses out your system while giving you beautiful skin.

-Jen

First Entry

To be honest, I started this blog to keep track of my diet.

Day 1.

I should be studying for my upcoming tax exam (which I'll epically fail) but instead I created this blog to help me keep track of my diet. According to my scale, I weigh 141.0 right now and that's above the target weight stated on the "Height to Weight Ratio Chart". Standing at 5'5, I am not short nor am I tall, therefore I am perfectly....AVERAGE. Although I may only be 5 pounds over the target weight, it is still way too much for me. Ultimately, I want to lose 20 pounds so that I'll weight around 120, realistically though that has never happened. However, this time I am serious in my endeavor. I am tired of being "fat".

Many times, like most people, I eat even when I'm not hungry. Instead of recognizing this, I indulge myself in food that I should clearly not be eating. For example, the past four days I've had ice cream and that's in addition gorging tons of fried food. I can feel my cellulite growing as I write this.

Therefore, the first step to my goal is to stop eating unhealthy food items which includes sweets and fried food. Instead of eating chocolate and ice cream, I should eat fruit. Oh god, this is going to be so much harder to do. Although, I do think it's okay to give myself a break every once in a while as long as I don't go overboard. Most importantly though I need to start running again. Yoga is not enough for me to stay in shape.

My body right now could use a lot of improvements

My stomach is gutting out and I have no defined waist

A closer view

Here are my measurements (they're a little off since I don't have a measuring tape yet):

• Hips (widest point): 37.5 inches
• Waist: 29.6 inches
• Right Thigh: 23 inches
• Left Thigh: 22 inches
• Right Arm: 11.5 inches
• Left Arm: 12 inches

Let the diet begin!

-Jen